i never use this thing anymore. i want to start again. i wish i had any time at all to be dedicating to art like i used to. not like my art was good, but i miss it. if i'm not doing work, i'm studying. if i'm not studying, i'm at my internship. if i'm not there, i'm sleeping/eating/showering. maybe winter break will give me more time? =/

ps; i live with psychotic half-retarded high-schoolers in a suite at purchase. i spend most of my time pointing and laughing at them. when i move out next semester and gain freedom, i'll have more time.

so, i finally have photoshop on my mac laptop at school. i'm so excited to be able to use it again. photoshop on macs is a bitch to get, illegally, of course.

anyways, i like purchase for the most part. if any of you are thinking about colleges and want to go into art--do NOT come to purchase for it. let me tell you a story.

so seeing as environmental science and biology are my concentrations and i have no intentions of switching anytime soon, i figured i would take an art class. the only one open was "collage," which sounded pretty lame but ohh well.

anyways, i got to the class and the professor was quite possibly the biggest prick i've ever met. he proceeded to tell me i have absolutely no right to be in his class, seeing as i'm a science major. though i do, anyone can take it. he said that i know nothing about art. that i have to go to the student services building to drop the class right away because my artistic ability wasn't up to the level he required. he didn't see any of my work, by the way. the sole face that i'm in the natural science division of purchase indicated that i know jack shit about art. hello! it's a collage class. i've made collages since i was what, five? he embarassed the shit out of me in front of people i didn't know during the first week of school. it sucked.

now that i got that story out of the way, let me tell you my intentions. i have about six things i can use for a graphic design portfolio to submit to the conservatory. i'm going to make about five more, and i WILL get in. and prove him wrong. and at that point, he can go fuck himself. my major's not going to change, and there is no way i'd want to be in the art conservatory.

he's just mad cause he's an artist that never made it. therefore, i hate the art conservatory professors because they're the most ignorant shits i've ever met.

that was quite a long entry for not using my deviant art in months. (:

I'm not creative anymore. I need to work on that if I want to continue in graphic design. Ugh. I haven't touched Photoshop in quite some time now. I've been so insanely busy with work and getting everything ready for college in like, 24 days. We'll see how that works out.

"it's 1:45 and i'm feeling alive.
i've got it all and it's your last call.
there's somebody new and he's better than you.
you've been replaced by a pretty face.
so look who's crying now?"

I won the Gold Key Award from the Scholastic Art and Writing Awards for my "Maireann Croi Eadrom i Bhfad" piece. It's my featured deviation on my page, check it out.

I think there were three thousand pieces submitted and mine was one of out five hundred that got that far. I could be off on my numbers. I knew I won the award like a month ago, but apparently they announced it on the afternoon anouncements today? I didn't even hear it. I'm still proud of myself.

I'm such a lazy fuck. There's no other way to put it. But it's okay, because I finally have a computer in my room. That should give me the motivation I need. Maybe.

I got into Purchase! Ahhh I was so excited. I sort of planned on getting declined from there. It's my first choice college, and I'll probably be going there. I'm seeing Cobleskill Monday for the first time so I'll make a final decision. 99% of me is saying Purchase. I'm an environmental science major as of right now but I can definitely see that chaning as soon as possible.

I'm in love with the Strokes. I had to get that out there. They have two shows in Hammerstein Ballroom, both of which are sold out. I was SO pissed. I was on their website like two weeks ago and there was no mention of like any U.S. tour dates. I'm so angry with myself. It's right before my eighteenth birthday, too! Ughhh.

Good bands are starting to play at Purchase all the time though, so I guess I have that to look forward to...